I haven’t written so much lately, partly because I usually have no internet in my apartment but also because my head has been spinning like a roller coaster.
I thought that I had come over everything and that it no longer bothered me, but it still burns within me when they walk by, when they’re laughing and whispering.
I also hate myself because I as soon as someone comes too close at me, I start thinking that everything will go wrong again and then I just push them away.
It just feels easier, and I can’t handle difficulties right now...
