What to say…
I do not like at all to criticize people because I’m not the best myself, and these are still good people that I really don't have anything against, they were once those who meant very much to me, but their acts at the moment I just can’t understand or defend in any way.
Right now everything just feels so ridiculously idiotic … Who is burning up a piece of paper with a person's name on it in the second year of high school without feeling pathetic?
I am just so tired, it's just so ridiculous, and what a lack of own life that I don't become the smallest hurt (which I'm guessing was expected) I can’t do any but laugh … And the time they spent on me, it was almost a little beautiful …
But anyway, life’s going well, some days I just want to lay down and die, like last night everything came up to the surface (all this in school and then shit at home with my father and the longing to you “pucko”) but I have still had fun. I was so happy the day I spent with Elina and Lisa in Sundsvall we had really fun and shopped loss + we found a really cozy cafe! (It will be visited again!) This Monday in school we got our plan for the rest of the year and today Tuesday started at 7 in the morning, the day has felt that the weather today firmly inside, it is grey and the rain pours down outside the window and everything "suger hästballe"(sucks), tried to talk with Helene my mentor but do not know if it made any difference at all, she said she should think about it …
Talked on the phone and fixed some pictures a minute ago and now I am actually quite okay. Later